So, I find myself struggling with letting go of the reins and allowing God to take over because I think I know what I want for myself. If something isn't going the way I had wanted, I feel myself getting frustrated with God asking "why can't I just have this one thing that I want! Why are you doing this to me?"
.... "but God, I want this relationship to work" ... "I want that job" ... "I prefer that car"... "Why are there so many obstacles? I don't see why this is so wrong!"... "Why can't I find a genuine man"...
I've asked A LOT of "why's", because I struggle with the virtue of patience!
but from previous experiences, the answer to my "why" often comes later...
"God, why did we have to break up?"
--- I would soon realize that I was suppressing feelings in my heart and was wanting so much more out of my life, It was time to move on to my next chapter...
"Why did I not get that job?"
--- Little did I know I was looking in the wrong places and would later be offered something better than I was hoping for. He knew a job with wonderful people and a great future was in the horizon, of course at the time, I did not.
"We were supposed to be roommates, she backed out last minute! She seemed so cool. Why did this happen?"
--- He was teaching me to have faith and patience. He had two other girls in mind and these ladies would help me grow into the woman I needed to be. They helped me grow in my faith, in love and in health!
We must remember there is a reason behind everything that we are going through. God will never give us more than we can handle, but sometimes this requires us to step up to the plate and do something that we may not want to do, but need to do. Any hardships that you overcome will only make you stronger. The strongest people have endured the most difficult circumstances.
He will place people in your life to mold you, and help you grow. Sometimes God puts someone in your life to show you something. For example-- genuine people do exist, don't give up hope! He places people in your life to get you through challenging times, then may take them away when they have completed their task. When God closes a door, don't stare trying to find a way to reopen it because you're missing out on the next door He is opening for you! Trust that His way is the best way.
BTW! No matter how much effort you attempt to make something work, if it's not God's plan, it WILL FAIL! For example, let's say there is something you have really been working toward, you are giving it your all, trying to make it work, but somehow it's just not working! Maybe grad school, a relationship, a certain job, trying to make the needed GPA to get into a certain university program.. etc. Take a step back and say a prayer, examine your life because it may be God's way of saying "my child, this is not My plan for you".
Is this easy?? NOO! Not by any means, but you've got to work at it every day!
Just think of how much you've wanted something in your life to work out, but it didn't---- Now! Imagine that feeling of having something 1000x better than that! That's God's plan for you! Isn't that so wonderful?! He wants you to be happy. He wants to give you SO much better! So, while you are holding on to something you THINK you want, God is saying "trust Me, you will like what I have planned so much more!"
So, when you're having a difficult day, and you're wondering "WHY" just remember that God is working in you're life and something amazing will come, but it will happen in His time, not yours.
Be Sassy. Be Sweet. Be You.
Classy, sassy, but oh so sweet!