Hi ladies! So sorry I haven’t written much lately… over the past few months I’ve written 10+ blogs, but before finishing, I saved it and closed out of the document. It just didn’t feel right. Contemplating a message/subject has been difficult. However there has been something on my mind lately so I thought I’d write about it and hopefully some of you can relate.
The other morning I went to church and to be honest I was not fully invested. During church I caught myself daydreaming-- going in and out of listening and daydreaming… listening and daydreaming.
So awful, ugh I know!
Anyway the daydreams were silly and insignificant. They were about something that could happen in the future, but more than likely will never happen. Nonetheless I picked up on some very important key points of the priest’s message. He talked about being tuned in to the “now” which, let’s be honest, I was not doing. He also spoke a lot about trust and clarity.
Idk about you, but I often attempt to “figure out” what God is doing in my life and lately I’ve been praying for clarity. Some days my thoughts sound something like this: “If I could just understand why I am struggling in this aspect then life would be better” or “If I just understood why I haven’t met a great guy, then I could relax and just wait until HTB (husband to be) comes along.” I struggle with enjoying the single life. I have a difficult time trusting that God will provide me with the man that I’ve always dreamed of meeting. There are times where it’s easier to trust than others, but a lot of the time I struggle. The struggle goes something like this: It’s discouraging when you meet an attractive man only to find out he's a total womanizer. Especially considering that all of your friends are married/engaged/soon-to-be engaged while you’re stuck dealing with nonsense that should be kept in high school. Then you begin to question: Are there “normal” men that appreciate the sophistication of a woman? Are there “normal” men that have good intentions? Are there attractive men who are humble and are not focused on ‘getting with’ a bunch of women? Are there strong men who can walk away from an unhealthy relationship? Where are these men?!
Anyway the priest spoke about how trust doesn’t have to prove itself--you just do it--just trust. He said the last thing you should be praying for is clarity, instead you just need to trust. Trust that God is working wonders in your life. Trust that His plan is more amazing than your own. Stop worrying about what is to happen or what could happen, trust that it will happen and live in what currently is happening.
I felt as if God was jumping up and down, waving his arms trying to get my attention. After church I sat in my vehicle and continued to replay the priest’s message in my mind. I then decided to read over my morning devotional and as I turned the page the first sentence reads “Understanding will never bring you peace.” BOOM! There He goes again, trying to get my attention. God was talking to me in all kinds of ways that morning! The devotional goes on to talk about how as humans we try to figure things out in order to gain a sense of clarity in our lives. However, in this world we will always be faced with some sort of problem, as soon as we figure out the problem and gain a sense of clarity another is presented. So instead of searching for understanding and clarity, we should be seeking God. WOW!
Ya know what, it’s hard. It’s really really hard, but the Christian walk is not easy. Thankfully God is here to walk with us and guide us on this long and winding path. So remember, pray for trust instead of clarity. We will never be able to fully understand why God allows things to happen, but we must trust that He knows what He is doing :)
Be Sassy. Be Sweet. Be You.
Classy, sassy, but oh so sweet!